Dispatches from the World of ADHD.

I’m feeling very much in the grip of my ADHD right now, despite taking my medication already two hrs ago. There are six different tasks that I want to do and I’m feeling the pull, or the impulse, to do all of them at once – or at least simultaneously. Which means that they’ll all get done half-assed, or they won’t get done at all.

The root cause of this, I believe, was going to bed late most of the week.

I can’t do that anymore. 

That really bothers me, I do miss staying up late nights, reading, watching movies, writing, but then I’d wake anytime between 12:00 – 3:00pm, and I’d feel horrible: head all fuzzy and out of sorts, suffering a horrible headache, and feeling very cranky.

This was before I started taking my ADHD medication.

So the consequences, for me, completely affected my quality of life. It made my ADHD worse, as well as my Major Depression. This was how I spent the majority of the first forty years of my life. 

So even though I’m medicated, I’m still a bit out of sorts. This is due to the fact that I indulged in two fun – but late nights: Thursday night during the Poetry Slam, then after at On the Rocks Tavern, then Saturday night for my best friend’s birthday party. Both nights I fell asleep between 4:00am – 6:00am. 

I realize now that sleep is truly a precious commodity for me and my brain, especially if I want to make the most of my day creatively. Some of that I attribute to age, some of it to the ADHD and Depression medication I’ve been taking.

There’s so much I want to do. Various passion projects in various stages of completion. I also have work activities to complete. 

As it is, right now, all I feel is a deep and drowsy syrupy pull to nap. I’ve caught my eyes closing on their own accord a couple of times.

But then again, it is summer.

Soon my life will be going through another long myopic tunnel of Have-Tos and Can’t-Waits, Due Dates and paperwork. 

What the hell, thirty minutes won’t kill me.

It is summer after all.

Author: marcwritesmoorewords

Wordsmith, Poet, Drummer, Foodie. Fantasy geek. Movie lover. Theater fan. Lover of good drink, great conversation and women who enjoy both. Striving for balance and clarity and humor as I manage my 5th grade students, my ADHD, my Major Depression, and my recently-widowed mother.

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