I could tell you 

I could tell you that my anti-depressants and ADHD medication have been driving me to lay the groundwork for my perfect classroom.

I could tell you how it drives me to exhaustion every evening, to the point all I want to do is take my meds and pass out.

I could tell you about how much I love my students and how much it worries me that every day I’m not doing enough for them. 

I could tell you that I miss my ex-girlfriend’s daughters. Miss them like crazy. 

I could tell you that I also miss – nevermind. I don’t want to take that one out of it’s box.

I could tell you that I’m lonely sometimes and I consider dating.

I could also tell you that I’m happy being alone, and that dating would be more effort than I’m ready to put forth.

I could tell you also that I finally bought a nice little home theater system – which is really going make me not want to step out of the The Last Homely House at all.

I could tell you, however, that there’s only one woman who I really think is worth asking out. 

I could tell you that I did ask her out, and the moment I did was the only time I felt nervous and scared and slightly sickly and weak and made of crinkly blue cellophane on the inside, which really sucks, because that was the exact moment I knew that I actually genuinely like this one.

I could tell you that this also sucks because she annoys the hell out of me.

I could tell you that life is funny.

I could tell you that Loss = Gain, like Gain = Pain.

I could tell you that life is like algebra.

I could tell you that we’re all just sets in an algebraic formula, all trying to balance out our equation, looking to fit, looking to combine, a balanced equation.

I could tell you that life is balance.

I could tell you that feeling unbalanced is showing you that you’re doing something for the wrong reason.

Oh, there’s so much I could tell you. But it’s real late and I’m very tired.

You see, I could tell you that. But you already knew that, didn’t you?

Author: marcwritesmoorewords

Wordsmith, Poet, Drummer, Foodie. Fantasy geek. Movie lover. Theater fan. Lover of good drink, great conversation and women who enjoy both. Striving for balance and clarity and humor as I manage my 5th grade students, my ADHD, my Major Depression, and my recently-widowed mother.

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